宝宝升级了～

好奇怪的感觉哦～
宝宝升级变成猫嫂了！！！！
而且还带着戒指～
感觉很奇怪。。。

每天坐在他的对面
他很多次都在自言自语
碎碎念。。。
开口闭口都是猫。。。
真的很奇怪的感觉哦~

他说他还没有适应拍拖的自己
我才是要说我也还没有适应拍拖的他吧~
以前一直说自己嫁不出啦，没人要啦。。。
结果最先拍拖的人是他自己！！！
哈哈～希望她开开心心享受被人疼的滋味

看到他甜甜蜜蜜～
我有点觉得自己。。。有一点凄凉。。。
哈哈。。。应该还没有完全接受吧～
我也知道现在对我来说并不是拍拖的好时候
我也知道现在的我还没有能力去爱一个人
我也知道现在的我还有很多事情要做
我也知道上帝会让我遇到那个‘对的人’
什么时候？

一年后？26 岁
三年后？28 岁
五年后？30 岁
十年后？40岁

哈哈。。。不知道
继续耐心的等待吧～
只要望着上帝走下去就对了～
加油！

感谢～

以前。。。很在意别人的眼光
很在意别人对我的看法
很在意别人说我胖
很在意别人说我懒惰
很在意别人说我没眼光
很在意别人说我这～说我那～

那是以前。。。
现在呢？

说真的。。。还是在意的。。。
可是在意的level 和时间变短了。。。
有人说我变胖了，一段时间很在意，可是过后就OK了
做回自己吧～
总会有一个人不是看我的外表，而是看我的内在。。。
发现自己真的很没有自信
买东西的自信
打扮时的自信
穿衣服的自信
做功课的自信
一点都没有。。。

可是，有一点我很有自信：
“我不会离开上帝”
因为他很真！
因为他很好！
因为他很聪明！
因为他很慈祥！
因为他很了解我！
因为他很关心我！
因为他很照顾我！

我是个很穷的人。。。
从来没有储蓄过。。。
家里收入不安定。。。

可是
我是个很富有的人。。。
因为
我不大需要用到很多钱：
我读书不需要钱因为我读师训
我衣服不需要买很多因为自己的胖身体不合身
我日常用品不需要买因为姐姐会给我
我吃饭的钱，政府给
哈哈。。。

每当我需要东西的时候
上帝就会派遣某某给我那个东西
这些在别人的眼里就是’幸运‘
可是我从来都不觉得自己是个幸运的家伙
从来都没有幸运过

我知道上帝在帮我
而不是运气站在我这儿～

哈哈。。。
因为formal wear都旧了
而且很薄的关系
不适合穿去学校了
打算买baju kurung

上帝的特意安排，
姐姐的公公婆婆出去旅行
所以就带我去他的家住一晚
看看我可爱的外甥~
问他哪里有卖马来衣服～
结果他把他以前的都给我
感谢主，还合身，穿的下！哈哈

虽然这些事情都是很渺小
很微不足道
可是～
这都是上帝在我最有需要的时候
给我的东西啊～
好开心。。。

从来都没有想过还要买formal 衣服的
可是姐姐说带我去买。。。
我知道一定是他出钱的
所以我心里说：买一件就够了。。。最多两件！
结果姐姐却买了三件给我！！！
好感动哦～

人真的要感恩
要学会知足
感谢上帝所给你
往往就会有你意想不到的事情发生

哈哈～

自己想多多

和宝宝的关系
其实是自己想太多了
他没有提到我因为
我们都没有什么接触
哈哈
都是自己想太多

有看到自己的一个弱点
很多时候都是自己想太多
幻想太多才会弄到很多麻烦事情发生

真的要让自己的脑袋停止
乱乱想
哈哈～

快要去实习了
要快快乐乐的去
快快乐乐的会来
不好的事情发生了
一定有好的一面
看自己怎样去想

这世界上没有巧合的
都是在上帝的掌握中
相信他就好～
不需要想那么多～
交给他就好！
加油！！

lost a fren?

recently i start to read bao bao's blog at least once a week, to know more about her and what she's doing over there... last time we are really best friend and her blog always mention about my name, however... recently, i cant even saw my name...

got 1 sentence that mention about like... that feelings like, such as like her roommate, uncle, no.9... even no.9 is on her list, and my name gone forever... is it because she never treat me as her best friend? is it because she treat me as normal friend already? is it because what i react make her think that i am not a good friend? is it? is it?

really wish to know why... but since we still have to spend 4 months time together at the school, i just pretend that i don' know...

maybe we are too close and i have a very strong 占有欲... no matter towards friends/belongings/family... so when i know that cat likes her, i suddenly felt that i have lost one friend and this friend no longer need my accompany because she already has admirer and that admirer will protect her and take care of her...

i don't know why i have that kind of feeling... it's not the first time... including my friend, eileen and my sister, poh... once they get bf... i really seldom together with them because i feel that i'm not needed by them already....

maybe what i did really hurt bao bao and she will never treat me as her best friend anymore... i'm trying to let go and control my 占有欲...

这个朋友。。。
还会当我是朋友。。。
可是～
不是很好朋友的那种关系了。。。
可惜～

my last relax week

this week will be my last relax week for this semester because practicum session will be started on next monday!!! and there will be at least 1 observation from the lecturer or co-operating teacher each week!!! what a wow!!! however, depends on God's strength, i'm sure i can overcome it!!! AMEN!!!

last friday went to my sis, Kerry's room at KL wangsa maju there... a small room indeed and share with her friend... spend for a night there and then go to PC fair and times square on saturday... the whole day walk here and there and shop shop shop...

thank God at least i have bought some shirts and pants and a bag... which cost me rm60 (polo brand) wow... first time to buy an expensive and branded handbag... i think i will use it till few years later haha...

went to setapak gospel chapel over there on sunday morning... the people over there are very nice and i met that solomon again haha... he's the one who always talk with new comers and stranger in the church... feel warm when somebody come and talk with you when you are in a new and strange place... should be like that when somebody comes to our church ^^

hope the people there will take care of Kerry and encourage her to church every week... this week will go back to kampar and spend some times with family and friends before the busy practicum session start haha...