家里的风波

连续两个星期五都没有回金宝了
这个星期六姐姐和妹妹都回来了
好兴奋
有宝宝玩了！

但是
突然一个消息出现！
我们的屋子有人要了！！
这是我每天都祷告的事情
我真的希望这间屋子能卖掉
找一个比较小的房子

能卖掉
我当然开心啦
全家人都很开心~
但是问题出现了
要选房子

看了两间屋子
一间像鬼屋-不能！
一间房间很小，只有两间房间 - 如买的话，要花钱盖过
只看了2间屋子
爸爸就好像很赶的样子
说要那个房子了
要这样这样做
要那样那样做
姐姐听了
就说慢慢找
找适合的
结果老爸就不爽了

到最后。。。
姐姐和妈妈投降了
随老爸喜欢

老爸到底在急什么？
不想做外卖了吗？
每一次做外卖
他们都会吵架
因为小小的事情
就吵一整天！！！

我会继续祷告
上帝一定会有他的安排

trials~

o Lord Father, good morning...
thank you for your message and thank you for your grace for me...
o Lord, you know my heart and mind, you know every single thoughts of them
you ask me to be holy... holy means set apart for God - separate from anything unclean or impure...

o Lord, do you means that khor is unclean and impure that you wanna me to separate from him? o Lord, thank you Lord... i know once he doesn't become your disciple, i wont together with him... just will be frenz...

o Lord father, thank you for your instruction and o Lord please grant me strength to go through this fire of trials... so that i will be purify... o Lord father, if he is the one, he will be your child... i would not 'try' first but let you decide for me... i'm not daring to try since i know it is not your will...

o Lord father, pray that Lord we will know each other more and o Lord please touch his heart and let him come to our church and know more about you...

o Lord, please continue to bless my parents and grandmother with good health and please heal all their sicknesses... grant the family a stable financial status... let your will be done whether the house can be sell or not... and most important is their salvation, pray that Lord you will touch their hearts as they hear your good news...

o Lord father, pray that juny's family will become better also, pray that Lord you will grant juny the faith to walk on your path and set her eyes on you alone... o Lord father, please bless her with a nice job in sg and pray that she will get some nice colleagues there to help her along...

o Lord father, pray that poh's bf will become a christian... thank you Lord for sending her this bf also that along the way, he help her alot... o Lord, please bless her with nice colleagues and boss at her first job...

o Lord, pray that may anne will complete her thesis on time and please grant her the wisdom to finish it... pray that Lord you will bless her with healthy body at kl and daily protection on the road...

o Lord, please bless my father and headmistress with wisdom to rule the family and the school... pray that her relationship with the teachers will become better and pray that Lord, she will become more tolerant with all the teachers...

in Jesus' name, Amen

他真的好可爱~

我的羽球KAKI-AH YAO先生
真的是好可爱好可爱

他的样子并不英俊
可是却很可爱

第一次好印象
是在打羽毛球的时候
第二次好印象
是在他给我面包吃的时候

他是个很自律的男生
读书就是读书
你怎样骗他出来也骗不到

但是
他的嘴巴最近越来越坏了
越来越会欺负我了
以前都是我在欺负他的
没有想到他的功力进步了那么多

今天元宵节庆祝会
他帮了我很多
因为我都拉他来帮我做东西哈哈~

第一次看到他穿粉红衣
感觉好新鲜
也不错嘛~
哈哈。。。
最好笑的是：他把全部纽扣都扭上了。。除了第一颗！
我立刻建议他把第二颗也不要扭~
可是他不听我的
最后我放弃。。。
后来我发现他把第二颗纽扣松了
哈哈！！
这样才乖嘛~

还有很多精彩的画面
但是。。好困哦~
要睡觉了~

桃花运？

几天前
JIA SHEN 约我一起出去庆祝情人节
约我去KL
可是我不要KL
后来他叫我想想地点
我在想。。。

去年
我已经拒绝他一次了
结果他还没有放弃
上一次
我拒绝他的原因
是因为他没有给到我安全感
我觉得他不会照顾女生
哈哈。。。
所以就不要咯~

这一次
一起出去
就当做是朋友约会一样
在深一层了解对方吧~
第一次
有男生约我情人节
好奇怪的感觉

开始想很多东西
开始想他是那个MR。RIGHT吗？
我们会适合对方吗？
一直在祷告
一直在问朋友意见
一直在问自己
到底要不要和她一起出去

当我正在犹豫的时候
又有另一个男生出现
朋友以前的大学朋友
在FB ADD我
然后说对我有兴趣
但是他并不是基督徒
我也很阐明我的男朋友要是个基督徒
但是他还是说没有问题
他没有问题。。。
真的是有理说不清！
就和她说：做朋友咯~

为什么最近桃花运那么强啊？
从来没有试过！！
主啊。。。
帮我决定吧~
是他吗？
不是他吗？

决心~

o Lord, morning and thank you for this wonderful and peaceful morning
that i still have the opportunity to praise you and to talk to you
please forgive all my sins and listen to my prayer
Lord father, i know i need to do something for my weight
o Lord, for it is gaining and it is not healthy to continue like this
you know my heart and you know my personality
every time when i do something
i lack of persistent and easily give up
o Lord, pray that Lord you will change me from within
train me to be a persistent person
start from today, pray that Lord you will send your holy spirit to guide me
and change me to exercise every single day for at least 1 hour
o Lord, for my motive is clear
not for the beauty of the body shape
but for the training of persistent and health
o Lord, i lay this into your hands...

o Lord, what happen?
why suddenly got few guys appear and said wanna to have a relationship with me??
my life is so peaceful and i'm waiting for the right one to appear
all the while, i'm not good in making decision and i always let you to make it
o Lord, this time, please help me to react in a proper way
not to hurt other people
and o Lord, i don't think that i can have that kind of attraction
for i have no confident in myself that i'm a good girlfriend
o Lord, i'm afraid of involving in a relationship
o Lord, you know my future and you know me very well
please help me to choose and help me to react
for i am helpless and i need your help

o Lord...
you know i'm weak in it
please give me strength

i would like to continue to pray for my family
please grant them good health and heal all their sicknesses
most important of all, please touch their hearts when they hear the good news
i know you are a faithful God that you will never break your promises
you've promise that when one in the family had been saved, the rest will be saved too
i will not give up but continue to pray for it
and o Lord, pray that Lord your holy spirit will lead me to shine for you in the family
o Lord, about the house, let your will be done whether it can be sell or not
for you know the best about the future of my family

o Lord, please bless juny's family too... pray that Lord you will grant them a stable financial status... pray that Lord you will help juny to solve her problems in her career and family... pray that she will lay all her burdens to you and commit everything to you... please protect her wherever she goes...

o Lord, please help may anne about her thesis and let her know about her passion.. please send angels to her to complete her thesis so that she will be able to graduate as master. same as timothy and uncle yam... please grant them wisdom and strength and time to complete their master and glorify your name

as for Evelyn and Darren, Moses and Eileen, pray that Lord you will grant them daily protection and please bless them in their field.. grant them the wisdom to make every single important decisions in their lives...

as for Poh, thank you Lord for giving her such a good job and pray that Lord, you will protect her and grant her wisdom to shine for you in her field and most important is to guide her in her spiritual life... pray that she will not be influenced by hiem but let her influenced hiem to know more about you... it is not an easy way to yoke with unbelievers and not being influenced by them... pray that Lord you will make her stronger and stronger in you...

as for kwan, pray that Lord you will protect her in the camp and thank you for sending her into this camp that i really can see changes in her when she comes back from the camp during the CNY... thank you Lord and please give her a better church to attend and meet more christian friends over there...

as for richard, please continue to bless him with good health and good colleagues, pray that Lord he will not have the feeling of loneliness over there but lean more about you in finding a suitable spouse whom you pleased...

as for jia shen, pray that Lord you will send your holy spirit to guide him so that he will have a stable job which can let him to attend sunday worship and worship you... please guide him in finding a spouse too.. you know his loneliness and desire to share his life with someone, pray that Lord you will grant him the wisdom to choose and make decisions in this area and also other area...

o Lord father, please grant those utarians and those who are still studying the wisdom and strength to study hard and glorify your name in their results and in their lives...

lastly, i would like to pray for my future life partner... though i don't know where he is and who he is, pray that Lord you will continue to bless him, protect him from any danger and please grant him the wisdom to make wise decisions in his life... pray that he will become stronger in you... pray that Lord, you will continue to mould both of us to be a capable husband and wife that when it is the right time, we will meet each other according to your perfect plan for us... and let your will be done, not mine~

just want to commit every single person and everything into your holy hands... in Jesus' name, AMEN~

低谷

生命中
最关键的时刻
最重要的时期
就是所谓的
‘低谷’

就是当你
什么都没有了
没有希望
没有盼望
没有爱
自己所重视的都没有了
自己所需要的都没有了

这就是生命中的低谷

而往往
低谷对于上帝来说
也是一个非常重要的时刻
因为往往在低谷的时候
我们才会真真地看着没有伪装的自己
才会看到脆弱的自己
越知道自己的脆弱
上帝的大能就越显得出来

不是每一个人
都会在低谷的时候
有机会认识上帝
也不是每一个人
都会在低谷的时候
愿意谦卑自己接受上帝

人
总是尽力把自己抬得高高的
因为要让别人知道自己的存在
人
总是尽力不让别人看到自己
不行的一面
脆弱的一面
肮脏的一面
邪恶的一面

但是
这些都不是上帝要我们做的
反而
上帝要我们把自己放到最下面
自己所做的一切好的东西最好都不要让别人知道
上帝要我们面对自己，看到自己
不行的一面
脆弱的一面
肮脏的一面
邪恶的一面

只有这样
我们才会认识上帝
知道真正的人生价值观
意识自己的存在价值是
明白真正的爱是怎样的

最近的我
很不愿意看到自己
丑陋的一面

新年期间
对别人而言
是个快乐的

但是我不一样
我要准备迎接一些我不愿意回答的问题
如：
还是单身啊？
该轮到你派红包了！
要懂得打扮才会吸引男生啊！
最近好像胖了！

尤其是
当家人围着你的时候
要你打扮漂漂亮亮去聚会
告诉你应该这样
应该那样

心里很无助
也很无奈
看着姐姐的美好家庭
看着妹妹的甜甜蜜蜜
看着身边的人双双对对

再看一下自己
一个人

很想告诉他们
我不想随随便便找一个上帝不喜欢的人
我的另一半并不能随随便便让自己决定
一定要是个让上帝喜悦的仆人
告诉他们
他们会明白吗？

很多时候
都不想让别人知道自己在想什么
尤其是非基督徒
因为他们听了
他们不会明白

很不愿意接受
负面的回答
所以选择不回答

发现一个很不好的东西
就是自己在家人面前的德行
对着家人我会很快不耐烦；但是对着朋友我会很有耐心
对着家人我会不爱说话  ；但是对着朋友我很爱讲话
对着家人我会很不客气  ；但是对着朋友我会很客气

尤其是对着我爸爸
是因为我还没有原谅他吗？
是因为我还介意他所做的一切吗?
是因为我还耿耿于怀吗？
是因为我对他已经失望了吗？

这个家
真的让我喘不过气来
也很矛盾
如果没有这样的一个家
我不会认识上帝
也不会有这样的自己

如果没有上帝
我的价值观是worldly的
认为美貌就是一切
如果没有上帝
我的存在价值是零的
认为这样丑陋和肥胖的自己
是没有人喜欢的
是没有人爱的

很矛盾吧。。。

上帝给我这样的家
一定有他的目的
他一定要我学习和领悟某样东西

上帝啊~
原谅我
给我力量~
拯救我~
改变我~