引诱～

今天
我又受不住KFC的引诱了！！！
最近都变胖了
因为没有运动
而且爱吃肥肥的东西

唉～
对吃。。。
我真的没有办法！！！

每当肚子空空的时候
都会觉得自己很可怜
很想填满它。。。

现在肚子满满地
感觉很幸福哦～
可是现在幸福
吃完了会有一种怎么办的感觉
好矛盾哦！！！
以后神经错乱怎么办？
哈哈～

再这样下去的话
真的会变成大肥婆
好不容易才瘦了一点点
现在却那么地容易胖回来了。。。

我对食物的self control
很差哦！！！
帮我啊！！！
如果我可以像MAY那样
一有压力就不大想吃东西的话
就好咯～～～
哈哈！！！

今天学校有讲座会
主讲人是一个基督徒也
激励学生是个有用的人
当他用主日学这个字的时候
我就有预感他是个基督徒
这个感觉很好
就好象自己人啊～

他很特别
用故事带出意义
加上自己的孩子作为例子
就是所谓的testimony
他的两个孩子小学的时候都是差学生
而且学习能力比别人慢
可是他从来都没有骂他们
妈妈的栽培真的很重要

每一个
去教堂的孩子
都不会坏到哪里去
因为上帝在看守着～

可是这个道理
有一些是不管用的
因为当一个基督徒
停止和上帝保持关系的话
就是说他已经把住在他身上的圣灵关掉了
这样的话
和普通人没什么两样

孩子
是个上帝送给我们的小天使
孩子
是个上帝珍贵的宝物
孩子
是个有无限潜能的东西
孩子
是个需要别人挖掘的宝藏


孩子啊孩子
希望上帝给我那个能量
去保护你们
去珍惜你们
去挖掘你们
去启发你们

孩子啊孩子
也希望上帝给你们那个能量
了解读书的重要
了解老师的用心
了解父母的辛苦
了解自己应做的和不该做的

老师
是个上帝送给小孩的礼物
老师
是个看似简单的工作
老师
是个不简单的使命
老师
是个只要看到孩子的笑容和进步就会满足的人
我是个刚刚成为老师的人
看到懒惰的小孩
我会大发雷霆
看到进步的小孩
我会开心到死
看到可爱的小孩
我会盯着他
看到顽皮的小孩
我会凶猛地盯着他看

很想看到小孩们的笑容
很想看到小孩们的成就
很想他们喜欢我这个凶巴巴的老师
很想成为能帮助他们的礼物老师
这就是为什么我当初选‘DOROTHY’
这个名字
因为我想成为
一件礼物
一件上帝的礼物
一件上帝给予别人的礼物
这个是我的梦想吗？
还是我的使命？

LDP

today my school has a LDP (Latihan Dalam Perkhidmatan)
from 7.30pm till 2pm
this LDP purposely done for us
to share all the things that we've learnt in the course we've attend...

i'm the MC and one of the presenter
thank God for giving me cikgu B
she is really a perfectionist and she has modify my powerpoint
and make it so nice
hehe....

thank God for giving me confident to be the MC of the day
everything going just fine but then
there's a great news!!!

our HM said she will not transfer to other school
because she wanna learn from the HM in china
she will continue to serve in this small school
and improve this school

actually...
for me....
this news....
is nothing because i know it must have a purpose for this to happen

this HM actually is very responsible HM
but then some of her attitude and behavior
that makes her not being easy to stay with
hope she will change and i will continue to pray for her
hope the relationship between the teachers and HM will become better and closer
so that every teachers and students will love the school very much
just like the school in china...

when you love the people in the school
you will love to come to the school

when you love to come to the school
you will work hard to make that school become better

LOVE must be there.....

God is watching over me....

还记得上一次我提到我的面试吗？
因为我们的CERT还没有被承认
所以就算面试完了
也有可能不算的。。。

当时
上帝和我说了一句话：
don't believe what you see or what you hear
just believe in Me alone

这一句话。。。
让我有勇气和信心
我知道上帝不会忘记我的

然后
昨天晚上
朋友告诉我
他的朋友和我同一天面试的
他的JAWATAN被akui了
成为lantikan tetap了！！！

我拜托我的朋友帮我上网检查
结果。。。
我也是！！！！

真的是
奇迹出现了～
上帝常常在看顾着我
faith is very important....
but at first you must be sure that
the things that you put your faith on
is the right thing

the God that i put my faith on
is the real God... not a fake one...
He walks with me and talks with me
along life's narrow or broad way...

Jesus really is a good friend and a nice friend to have!!!
hope all my friends and my family will know this Jesus...
because i want them to have joy and experience the wondrous of His love~

only those who can understand~

still remember the incident that happen between
my father and i???

after this incident
i really feel very disappointed and sad
because i've become a christian more than 10 years
and it is not the first time
i;m active with church activities

but then
my parents, who have already know me for more than 20 years
even them dont know my passion
it's because they are non believers
what we believe are different

so i'm wondering.....

how come a husband/wife who know you for less than 10 years
can understand your passion if he/she is a non believer???

now ...
i truly understand
why God asks us don't yoke with non-believers
because problem and misunderstanding will happen
when each other's passion is not the same!!!

i must stand firm~
to do what God wants me to do on this earth~

news~

there's a news about the interview today
the newspaper said that
there will be no interview to confirm a government servant
it means that no need to go through the process of interview
then only you can confirmed to be a teacher

but then
there's a news which is that this will apply to the next batch of teachers
not my batch...

there's alot of news out there
but i know...
what God told me before:
believe in me
do not believe on what you heard or what you see
but put your faith in me

i always keep it in my mind
i know that God is working and using His way
i want to put my trust in Him
because my future is in His hand...
i know He will not put me aside... ^^

it is really good to have a heavenly Father like Him!!!
yeah!!!

today is the first day i teach my little niece
she is very very cute
her chinese is not so good
and i need to try my best to teach her
all about chinese
hope i wil be a good aunt for her
and a good teacher for her

there's still a long long way for me to be a good teacher
may God bless me and grant me wisdom
to handle my students

taiping trip~

first time drives to taiping with my 'new' second hand car
really thank God for his protection along the way to taiping and back to kampar
i know He is watching over me
always!

first station is the Maxwell Hill
long long time din climb up a hill
today!!! there's a chance!!!
i'm the last person who climb up the hill
and the last person who come down from the hill

other young people gather at the entrance and take lots of lots of crazy photo
after i took some of it
i start my journey -- hill!!!
walk walk walk walk.......
it's a nice experience to climb a mountain
hope next time can go again and reach all the station
but i know i will be alone along the journey
because my speed is low...
it's better to climb it slowly myself...

second station is the lake garden
the view over there really nice
we praise our Lord with songs and music
really fun...
for i'm the game master
i've prepared two games which needs lots of strength and running
i don't know whether they are tired or not
they are not interested in my games and start to confuse about the games
i search this game through net
i tot it will be very exciting
but then....
it's not!!!

since they not interested
i just pas this job to others
and let them lead the game
i have to admit that my preparation is not good
will do it better next time

last station: HOME
when i almost arrive my house
my mother already open the gate for me
She's waiting for me...
i know she's a mother who worry alot alot alot!

once i get out from the car
my mother said,
"go bath and take dinner,
after that go and rest...
tomorrow better don't go to church
you are too tired of it!"

my answer of course is NO!!!
i'm ok with it

then i take out my HP
it writes, 'INSERT SIM CARD'
oh.... my hp always has this problem....
reinsert the sim card for a few time
then only can switch on my hp
once i switch it on
it has a message from 121
you have 6 missed call
some of them are from my father and sister

then my sister come down from upstair
and said to me,
"this time, you will surely die!
father is very angry at upstair and start scolding you just now...
why you never pick up the phone?"

walao eh....
my HP has problem, i also dont wish to
somemore i'm driving and having acitivities the whole day long...

my sister continue,
"father scold that you always go out
go to ipoh, go to taiping
go with who? utar students?
why mix with them?
if it's a dating, then fine
but all of them are younger than her!
why church people is like this?!
church people no use one!"

my heart really broken and very very disappointed with him
it's not the first time he knows about church acitivities
it's not the first time he knows my passion on the church acitivities
it's not the first time he knows my attitude and my behavior
how come he does not trust me at all?!

i really angry because
he scold my frenz
he scold my church frenz

what should i do?
follow his will?
go to work from monday to friday?
come back home from friday to sunday?
holiday just stay at home?
cannot mix with younger people?
go out with frenz just for dating?
really really nonsence!!!
His words are really really harsh!

and worse thing is
my mother stand at his side
haiz...

i'm a human
i'm a daughter
i'm not a robot that need to obey all his laws and commands
i'm not something that he can control !!!

i really trying so hard to respect this father
i know i have no choice
but to respect him

'you must respect you father and mother,
not because what they had done for you;
but it's because God wants you to..."

o Lord
please give me strengh
please give me wisdom
please give me patience
please give me gentleness
please give me LOVE
to handle this problem~

come to the Father

as i listen to this song...

Before the world begin
you were on His mind
and every tears you cry
is precious in His eyes

because of His great love
He gave his only Son
and every thing was done
so that you will come

nothing you can do
could make Him loves you more
nothing that you done
could make Him close the door
because of His great love
He gave his only Son
everything was done
so you would come

come to the Father
though your gift is small
broken heart
broken lives
He will take them all

the power of the Word
the power of His blood
and everything was done so you would come

i still remember
we young people sing this song
during the christmas gathering
in order to ask the lost sheep come back to God

listen to the lyrics
and think about what the ODB said today:
"Blessed are the poor in spirit"
in God's perspective,
those who are poor in spirit are very blessed people
wondering why?
why God says suffering is good?

here are 4 reason:
(1) it helps us realise our ugent need for redemption
(2) it helps us experience our dependence on God and our interdepence with one another
(3) it helps us distinguish between necessities and luxuries
(4) it helps us respond to the call of the gospel because we may have become so desperate that we cry out to God

it is correct!
because only those who are sick, who need a doctor
same as
those who are poor in spirit, who need God and receive the good news

the poor, the hungry, the mourners, and those who suffer are blessed because their lack of self-sufficiency is obvious to them every day. they must turn somewhere for strength
in the other hand
people who are rich, successful and beautiful may go through life relying on their natural gifts.

but

people who are needy, dependent and dissatisfied with life are ore likely to welcome God's free gift of love....

so i thank God
for giving me suffering...
for let me become a poor girl...
for din making me a successful girl...
haha~

computer ar computer~

电脑很慢
不知道为什么
拿去FORMAT
是变得快了
可是
看不到华语字体
上不到ＭＳＮ
真够力。。。

等一下
要请鹏来看一看
他好像很会的样子
哈哈！！！

认识到这样一个朋友
真的蛮不错的

昨天
两个无聊的人
跑去看电影
哈哈！！！

然后
一直吵着要打羽毛球
可是没有场
也没有办法
唉～

约好了
星期五又去看电影了
约好了朋友就出发！！！

昨天晚上
跑去TIMOTHY的家
让他帮我FORMAT电脑
当中
聊到我的终身大事
哈哈
看来他们也蛮担心的
到处要介绍人给我认识
连年纪小过我的
也 不放过？！

唉～
真的很好笑！！！

顺其自然吧～
上帝会有安排的~
不必想那么多。。。。
哈哈！～！

羽毛球～

真的
真的
真的
很喜欢打羽毛球哦！！！

今天晚上本来可以打的
可是因为没有人打哦。。。
YAO 生病了
EDWARD 生病了
LI要出气欢送会
RICH要庆祝父亲节
JUNY没回
EVE和DAR去了泰国

可是
还好。。。
因为PHANG约我和他的朋友一起打
哈哈。。。
终于！！！
有羽毛球可以打了！！！
很开心

而且
也认识到一个小弟弟
他蛮不错的哦
蛮会打的。。。。

可是
我还是喜欢看YAO打球
哈哈～
尤其是杀球的时候！！！
帅～漂亮～
希望这未来的四年
可以继续和他们这些难得的KAKI
一起打球。。。
要好好地珍惜这几位KAKI
感恩。。。 嘻嘻

妈妈说。。。

刚刚
妈妈说：
你啊。。。样子很像我
可是脾气就很像老爸！！！
语气永远都是那么的坏
和听起来有骨的。。。

我也这样觉得
不知道为什么
每次和他们说话
我就有一种不爽的感觉
尤其和我爸说话
因为他是不会听你说的
就只会觉得他自己对完

而我妈妈
和他说话。。。
不能轻声细语的
因为他的耳朵有点问题
不怎样听到我们说什么
所以每次和他说话
我都要喊出来

当我轻声细语的时候
他说我听不到
所以我后来就喊出来！！！
结果就好像我在骂他。。。。
无奈～～～

总觉得
好难沟通
我的耐心有限
上帝要训练我的耐心吗？

其实
比起以前
现在算是有进步了

至少还有和他们说话
以前啊
根本就不大想和他们说话
觉得说了等于白说
所以就索性不说
全部自己吞

加上老妈是个紧张兮兮的老妈
告诉他一点点东西
他会担心一个星期
所以还是不要告诉他比较好。。。

我懂我的脾气很坏
需要改进
感谢遇到上帝
不然。。。
没有人要和我做朋友吧哈哈

加油！！！

半退休的男人

今天
如常地我要载我的婆婆去挡口
这个挡口卖给别人了
只做到这个月底。。。

老爸今天又说了
‘你啊～要开始存钱了。。。
照顾妹妹啊～’

还到处和别人说：
’我现在是半退休的人了
不要生活地那么匆忙
开始放慢脚步了。。。‘

心想：
哇靠。。。
半退休。。。
可是。。。
看来他也累了吧。。。
希望我有这个能力养活家人
上帝要帮我哦～
嘻嘻～

刚刚
老姐打电话给我
问我家里怎样了
告诉了他
他就一直在电话那里生气
耳朵痛
生气也没有用啊～
只好做我们孩子应该做的咯
大人们要怎么做。。。
我们也管不着
因为家里的两头牛（老爸和婆婆）
都非常地相似的一对母子
都非常地固执

很难会接受别人的劝告
所以说了意见
他们不接受
就算了咯。。。

免得又吵架
PEACE 。。。。。。
这个字
很重要！

管不着的东西
都交给上帝吧
我没有能力
可是上帝有啊～
嘻嘻。。。
他一定有他自己的计划
做自己该做的就好

和老姐说完了
MAY 就打电话来
也聊了家里的事情
他问我觉得怎样
会不会很压力

以前。。。
会咯。。。
可是。。。
经历了那么多事情
也学习到也很清楚地知道一件事情
那就是：
上帝一定不会让自己的孩子去死的！
他一定会帮忙的！
而且是用他自己的一套来帮我们!
让我们从中学习和升华
让我们更像耶稣
哈哈～

他说：
不错哦。。。很POSITIVE THINKING 哦
其实不能说是POSITIVE THINKING 咯
FAITH 很重要
FAITH IN GOD 更重要

当然
单单FAITH是不能的
也要ACTION的嘛。。。
就做自己应该做的事情咯
自己做不到的一直烦恼也没有办法啊
就让有能力的上帝去做咯

上帝都已经offer 给我们啦
lay all your burden unto Me....
有这样好的offer，为什么我还那么烦恼呢？
哈哈～
你说对不对？

welcoming night at Grand Kampar Hotel

昨天晚上
和教友们出席了一个
welcoming night for new freshies in utar

第一次出席
感觉很奇怪
全部人都很年轻哦。。。
哈哈～发现自己老了

他们所玩的游戏
也很奇怪哦。。。
哈哈～

每一间教堂
都会有自己的桌子
方便其他新的学生（基督徒）
参考和了解

我做在那儿。。。
有人走过来。。。
开始不知所措。。。
对着陌生人
我的舌头不懂跑去哪儿了
词穷了。。。

还好有其他的教友在
他们都很活跃
哈哈～
看来我还是适合
做后台的工作哈哈

但是
意外发生了
praise and worship的时候
做在我隔壁的一个小男生
也是一个新生
AUNTIE DOLLY 做在我的旁边
很热情地打招呼和介绍我们的教堂
而我还是很木纳地坐在那里听他们说话

AUNTIE DOLLY 把他介绍给其他教友
每个人的眼睛都大大地当听到他的名字
因为他的名字是MOSES
哈哈～
第三次听到这个名字
哈哈～
看来我们永远都会记得他

很好笑的是
我做在MOSES的旁边
教友们都自我介绍了
就是有我～

等大家都出去COUNTER忙碌的时候
Moses竟然没有离开座位
而一直坐在我的旁边
我就鼓起勇气！！！
和他打招呼和介绍自己。。。
然后我们就很自然地聊天起来了～
感谢主
并没有冷场

聊了蛮久的～
也了解他的家庭～
然后教友们回来了。。。
教友们也很友善地和他聊天

这个小男孩很乖巧
希望他会出席我们的YF和教会
继续做朋友～

他是我在WELCOMING NIGHT里面
唯一认识到的人了～
哈哈～

真正地假期～

课程完了
当然就回家了

今天
到店里去。。。
老爸说：
要开始存钱了
不要把钱花在车上
要照顾妹妹
还问我的津贴到底是多少钱

我姐姐说过
不要让老爸知道自己到底有多少工钱
可是我真的不想说骗话
结果就老老实实地和他说了

其实
就算我不让他知道
他也已经打算让我扛下这个家的了
再一次
这个重重的责任
也重重地放在我的肩膀

可是我不怕
因为上帝在我这儿
他不会让我承担我所不能承担的东西
我是个姐姐
这是我的责任

感谢主
让我不缺东西
我要车；他给了
我要项链；他给了
我要工作；他给了
我要健康；他给了
我要食物；他给了
我要衣服；他给了

东西就是那么地被安排地那么恰当
别人会说这些都是巧合
可是我很清楚地知道这不是巧合
世界上哪儿来那么多巧合啊～

可能你会说我在自欺欺人？
可能你会说我很乐观？
我可以很肯定地告诉你：我不是

我可以那么地确定和无忧虑
是因为我和上帝一起经历了很多事情
而他，是个我可以付托终身的一个上帝
无论如何，他都不会舍我而去

前方的路，可能会很遥远，可能会很困难
可是我并不是一个人
可是我并不是靠自己的力量在前行
如果是靠自己的力量的话
我早早就倒下了
我所靠的不是不会说话的神
我说靠的是一个真正富强和慈爱的上帝！！！

爱心计划课程

当大家都沉醉在假期的当儿
我需要出席一个在吉隆坡的课程
因为有一个同事不能出席
所以我就是代替他的那位人选
哈哈～

这个课程
让我空空地去
让我满满地回
他不但赠送很多礼物
也让我见识到很多不一样的东西

一个从中国来的主讲人
从一间小小的乡村小学
变成现在的一间大大的乡村小学
就是因为两个字：

坚持

这两个字
让我联想到上帝所说的其中一个果实：LONGSUFFERING
除了坚持之外
当然还需要一个字，那就是：爱

爱学生
要给适当的赏识和惩罚
爱学生
要给耐心和时间

做老师很不容易
做校长更不容易

一个都不能少
这个也让我联想到上帝的99绵羊
上帝会为了一只迷失了的绵羊
而丢下99只绵羊在那里
快快地去找那只迷失了的绵羊

主讲人
形容每个学生就是一朵莲花
有一些莲花很快就开花
而有些花苞要等很久很久
他说
当老师面对这样迟迟不肯开花的花苞时
千万要记得不要硬硬地将它拔开
因为这样做只会把花苞弄坏
老师要有耐心地浇花施肥
因为总有一天
那多迟开的花苞会开出最美丽的花朵

这真的给了我很多很多的学问
耐心真的很重要而我真的很需要

学生需要知道自己的学习的目标
不能把读书当作不重要的东西
要清楚地知道自己将来要做什么

下半年
我要每个学校很清楚地知道
自己到底要做什么
自己到地是为了什么而读书
希望他们会开窍